Has it really been three and a half years since I started this whole book writing thing?! Sometimes I marvel at where I’ve come from where I started. If writing has taught me anything, it’s that God is always pushing past my limits to get me to the place where letting Him take the lead is the ONLY option.
There are times when…I honestly wonder if it’s ever going to end.
It all started innocently enough…
“I think I should write a book about my weight journey,” I said.
“This will be an exciting new challenge and experience,” I said.
But that was years and thousands of typed words ago. I would easily estimate that I’ve written more than 200,000 fiercely-edited words between the book, the Bible study, the video script, the YouVersion devotional, the audio book and the countless versions of marketing copy.
Some of you may know that I originally came out with a published book, Find Your Weigh, in late 2016. I basically printed it and sold a few copies to family and friends. It was my story, but it wasn’t the full story that God wanted me to tell.
He had something much bigger in mind. But, His plans have unfolded one step at a time. I have been reminded of Psalms 119:105 throughout the process.
Your word is a lamp for my feet,
a light on my path.
My family used to do a lot of camping when I was growing up, so I’ve had my share of pitch-dark trips to the community bathroom. On these trips I relied on the flashlight to lead the way as I stepped, one foot after another, into the illuminated circle of light. Although everything around me was blackness, I knew I would make it to my destination if I just stepped into the light.
God understands us. He knows that we are prone to set limits on what we can and cannot do. That’s why He seldom let’s us see what’s at the end of the journey. Instead, He gives us juuuust enough light to take the next step.
Only then, does He illuminate what’s ahead.
I’ve also discovered that the path God has illuminated for me is not always easily seen by others. This has been a tough lesson to learn, because if the truth be told, it has often been the support and encouragement of others that I relied on most when navigating past challenges.
We often crave the approval of others…so much so, that we can actually rely on it more than we rely on God. I think this is the very reason why God often calls us to venture into unknown territory. Maybe even into places that no one else fully understands or appreciates.
It’s in these dark places that I have to let God take the lead; otherwise, I’m left stumbling all over myself.
There’s been rejection and questions along the way, as well as, waves of my own self-doubt…”God, is this really something I am supposed to do?” And it’s these times that have learned to rely more and more on Him. All I can do is follow the light as He illuminates the next step.
Honestly, when all is said and done, this is a great place to be. I left the comfort of my limits and abilities a long time ago. Somewhere, back in the dark, I laid down my insecurities and self-doubt because they were just too heavy to carry anymore.
Only God can illuminate my next steps, so I will just follow where He chooses to lead.
If it’s God who’s calling you to push past your limits, then I can promise you with all certainty that He will be your light in the darkness. Just trust Him for the next step.
And, when you feel like others just don’t seem to see the path He has for you? These are the times when you can go to Him honestly and openly and say, “God, if this is not the path you have for me, then just shine your light in another direction.”
In the end, if the light’s still shining, then I’m still walking…end of story…the journey moves on.
I’m really excited to be at this point in my book project. I will be revealing more about Find Your Weigh and the companion Find Your Weigh: Walk In Freedom Bible Study Guide (with free video links!) in the next few weeks. If this sounds like something you or your group of friends may want to do together at the start of the new year, I encourage you to stay tuned or drop me a note for more info.